#lotta weird choices at the end of that movie

[yumeirochaser]

finished all of steven universe (show/movie/shippuden)

okay so stewing on it. this show as a whole is very good. great, even!! i feel like a lot of the criticisms thrown at it online are kinda bullshit, and it is way more nuanced than i remember. it is VERY flawed, but ultimately good.

i'll start with the pros of the whole project:

-really impeccable art direction and music. this show is a feast for the eyes, esp since it's a 2010s project

-very nuanced discussions of complex emotional topics (outside of one big case)

-REALLY good cast, there's only like 3 bad charas, but everyone else is really really good and compelling

-actually really good diverse and lgbt rep. i love yuri fam. we got so much yuri here.

-really good drama and jokes. it's actually very good at balancing both tones

-brisk and nice to watch

-REALLY good complex characters. rose/pink is unironically one of the tragic toxic woman all timers

-the songs rule. lotta bangers here

-i love the character designs a lot!!!!

so yeah it is VERY good!! but also really flawed. here's the cons:

-really bizarre show pacing and episode placing, which tbh i can't blame too much on them bc it WAS CN's fault for making the insane idea of stevenbombs

-the fuck it we ball planning is REALLY apparent at times

-the wide majority of the cast is very underfocused, despite the show constantly setting them up to have bigger roles. i would say the quartet of jasper/bismuth/lapis/peridot were the most prominent victims of this, but it's in general since it is the result of...

-steven himself being a VERY weak lead, with the insistence of everything being in his POV limiting the show and contriving plots more than anything. he is in fact imo, the show's biggest flaw, severely hurting it by the end of future. they really struggle with making him likeable and interesting, and the way the show insists to focus on him makes a lot of major character beats depend on him being on screen or just. happen completely off screen. certain plots also get REALLY convoluted to have him in places and private situations he really shouldn't be in for us to actually see what happens to other characters at all. he's also very one note and not really allowed to be as complex as the rest of the cast, with him constantly being exonerated of any wrong thing he does, by either being right all along or a woobie. this does get real uncomfortable with plots like the lars body swap ep, the lars/sadie ship eps and the entire second half of future bc. he gets reaaaal weird and possessive with the rest of the cast there and it's more or less glossed over. he also kind of is limited to One personality trait per season, being one walking fat joke in S1, fluctuating between funy permachild and messiah complex guy in the rest of the main show and the movie and becoming just walking whump material in future. it's weird bc he DOES improve and develop in S2, esp with the peridot arc, but then they more or less reverse his development for the rest of the show after the cluster arc ends??? it's a bizarre choice. his presence really looms over this show, like a black hole. like conceptually he's really good and he has moments where he can shine, but his execution in the majority of the show is very poor imo. like i get what they wanted to do with him in future and i agree it's a necessary topic to discuss. but also they should have made him like. an actual character people would like for that to work lmao

related to this we gotta talk about. connie. man. she was hit with the shonen jump love interest stick since very early on and she never recovered. her training arc kinda ends on nothing, she kind of only is there to fuse into stevonnie a bunch of the time (with their uh. weird ass early eps. why fanservice the little kid fusion.) and she more or less is just reduced to being steven's loyal emotional support woman by the end of future. honestly it's weird how nobody talks about the way she is treated bc it's oddly bad for a show that usually treats its diverse charas really well. like damn she really got done dirty.

but yeah i wish we were able to have eps with the rest of the cast leading bc they are really good characters. i think my faves are garnet (she actually got focused on the most out of all gems, which i don't really see fans mention either. she's great), rose (she's so fucked. i love it.), amethyst (more femmes should be allowed to be gross weird assholes in tv.) and peridot (rancid moe...). but i love all the gems they are great. the townies are also really fun!! (outside of ronaldo & kevin). i wish we could have actually seen more of the cast's lives, thoughts and interests outside of steven...i just really like these characters a lot

it's kind of a shame the show kinda goes down the gutter with future's second half bc the majority of it is really good shit with really nuanced handling of themes like chains of abuse, unorthodox families, familial abuse, trauma, abandonment, war and grieving. i legit think this show was something special and bold for its time, and i wish it ended in a better way. i had a really good time with it and i still love the cast a lot, but yeaaah they shouldn't have turned steven into the center of the universe. that really hurt it by the end. it's a good show that left me with a really weird feeling by the end. i will still cherish the time i had with it but yeaaah. it is a shame bc i really dig the concept of future, but the execution was like ehhhhhh hmmm not very good. the rest of the show clears in these topics tho we love screwed up girls. objectively tho there is way more good aspects to this show than good ones. it's just that the one big bad thing it has is the main focus of the whole dealio lmao

i wish future didn't screw up at the end but i am glad this show exists and it did pave the way for other shows! so at least there's that!! i will miss the crystal gems and their funky friends a lot....

[sanjilover4815]

15 Questions Tag game!

Thanks for taggin' me @unlicensedcatboydick!

Are you named after anyone?

Yes! Two "people" (fictional characters). From Metal Gear Solid 1 and 2 :3

2. When was the last time you cried?

Last week!!! Game made me sad @ v @

3. Do you have kids?

Despite what the fetish will tell you, I do not! Don't plan on it, either!

4. What sports do you play / Have you played?

I used to do track and field in middle school, though I wasn't very good! (Aside from long jump, I kicked ASS at long jump).

5. Do you use sarcasm?

Yes :3

6. What is the first thing you notice about people?

Word choice! How they speak and what words they use, why they'd theoretically use those words, if I find it interesting or cute or whatever, etc. I dunno, it's how my weird funky cat brain works :p

7. What's your eye color?

Hazel!~ (It's very odd and I've got... no idea what I'd call it otherwise lmao)

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

Uhhhhh... depends! I don't watch many movies, so I guess happy endings? I'm a misery slut though, so who knows!

9. Any talents?

Absolutely not! :D

10. Where were you born?

OI!!! You ain't gettin SHIT from me, officer!!! >:C

11. What are your hobbies?

I play a lotta video games!!! I also write, I cook, and I read! (Mostly manga, these days, nyaha.) Don't ever get me started about games, I'll talk your ear off. 'v'

12. Do you have any pets?

Nobody's pledged themselves to me yet, but-

oh, animals. Two dogs!

13. How tall?

I'm 5'10"!

14. Favorite subject in school?

I'm studying History at the moment, so that x3

15. Dream Job?

Unknown!!! Currently studying to be a teacher, so I guess that?

I tag... nobody cause I can't think of who to tag, bwaaahh

15 (+1) questions tag game ~ Thank you for tagging me @blushingguy ˚₊‧꒰ა ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

1. Are you named after anyone? no

2. When was the last time you cried? yesterday

3. Do you have kids? a cute little princess

4. What sports do you play/ Have you played? basketball and volleyball

5. Do you use sarcasm? sometimes

6. What is the first thing you notice about people? tone of voice, mannerisms, eyes/eye contact, nonverbal actions/cues

7. What’s your eye color? brown

8. Scary movies or happy endings? happy endings

9. Any talents? i can play trumpet and piano-sorta

10. Where were you born? ~

11. What are your hobbies? listening to music, reading manga/manhwa/novels, painting, drawing, crafting, writing poetry, photography, etc…

12. Do you have any pets? a cute little princess

13. How tall? 162.56cm/5’4

14. Favorite subject in school? art, music, oceans and atmosphere, astronomy

15. Dream job? something along the lines of a creative director. I want to help people but I also want to do so in a creative way.

16. In place of #10: What reminds you of home (doesn’t have to mean house… just things that remind you of the feeling of home)? warm sunny days with a cool breeze, genuine/wholehearted laughing, goofy pictures, silly jokes, running up/down a hill, using a swing in the park, going to the library… anything that’s nostalgic and reminds me of happy childhood times/memories tbh…

I tag: @fivefancyarrows, @notsospecialafterall , @fresh-afterlife, @thrashedparticle , @theuwuafterhours , @lil-bbybun , @loveapocalyps , @rikoxxlv , @equaly @shoujoking @dantexxorihara + anyone else who wants to do it! ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

[slashingdisneypasta]

For the ask game- 💔💘🏠🎤⚔️? Hope its not too much?? 🦊

Ahhh, thank you!! That's not too much at all ^^

💔 The slasher you’d LEAST like to meet IRL.

Remake!Freddy Krueger without a bloody doubt. Absolutely no thank you. Though I certainly wouldn't wanna meet OG Freddy, either. I've talked about this before- this is just not the Slasher for me 😅 I'm better suited to surviving, like... Childs Play. I'm very neurotic and very thorough XD

💘 The slasher you’d MOST like to meet IRL.

Oooh, probably Jennifer! (At least today- I definitely fluctuate! Haha) If I can befriend her I WILL XD I can put up with a lotta shit, so as long as she doesn't tryta kill me, which I suppose she wouldn't considering I'm not a boy, we can work this out XD 😅 I wanna have sleepovers and watch true crime with her!!

🏠 If you could live with only one slasher who would it be? How’s the experience?

LIVE? So you're promising that they wont kill me?? 😅😅😅 Hmm... I'm thinkin Foxy Coltrane XD Not Otis, Not Baby, none of the rest of the family (Though Rufus and Tiny do seem to be little more chill 😅 XD )- Just Foxy. I like him ^^ He's kinda chill but also kinda wild??

The experience! Well... he makes me watch his black and white movies, which is stressful because he's so passionate about them, but then he lets me force bad Slasher movies upon him- so, there's give and take XD You'd end up being the only two people who fully get each and every one of eachothers movie references! Which i think is a very underrated form of affection.

Other then that he disappears for weeks on end, which gives me a lotta blessed alone time to myself (Perfect). And he brings back weird shit to show off.

🎤 Which slasher has the nicest voice?

Uh

*shifty eyes towards This post I just reblogged.

XD Nah, really though I have a real soft spot for Chucky's voice. He can do no wrong, not with a voice like that!! Everything he says is just perfect. Iconic. And Brad Dourif's execution of each line is just- ahhh! I'm obsessed. I would watch Antique Road Show, I swear, if only Brad Dourif narrated it XD

"Its not an addiction, it is a choice. And it is NOT SOMETHING- THAT YOU SHOULD HAVE TO HIDE- IN THE CLOSET!" (That is one of my favourites XD )

⚔️ What slasher do you think you could beat in a fight?

Oh... boy... Well, I'll try and fight almost everyone as long as its not Baby Firefly honestly (That scene in 3 From Hell when the horrible guard leaves her alone, in cuffs, in a room with two mean lookin uncuffed prisoners to try and get her killed or hurt and Baby somehow fucking RIPS THEIR INNARDS OUT?? haunts me).

But um, I guess I'll go with Billy Loomis?... I will kick him so hard in a certain place that he will not be able to speak for several days. Honour code? Not me thanks, if someone's coming at me I will go for the balls, the face, the throat, the nipples, the hair- whatever I can get at.

I was gonna pick Drayton but I just dont want to... I love him!!...

Please 🦊! - if you want to- tell me your answers to these questions!! ^^

[attemptinghaikyuu]

Tanaka and Noya helping you flirt

A/n: I just think this would have disastrous results but in a fun way, also completely unrelated but the lost boys is a very good summery vampire movie, the vibes are spectacular

G/n reader

Suna Rintarou

You’re at a volleyball tournament, there to support your friends and yet you’re somehow being pushed into flirting

“Y/n, come on! You need practice and you already said that guy over there was cute!”

Noya’s hanging off your arm and Tanaka’s on your other side nodding his head encouragingly

All you feel is despair and it must show because Noya’s now attempting to drag you towards him and pep talk you at the same time

“Your flirting is only half bad, the people you try anything with have been jerks most of the time! But this dude seems okay so you should go for it!”

You wanna be mad at Noya, except he’s completely right

The few times you had tried to flirt had all ended in disaster

One guy had given you his number, or what you thought was his number

It had actually been a pizza place and when you realized what was happening, in a state of awkward panic, had bought two large pizzas

That had been an upsetting night, and while Tanaka and Noya had helped you eat the pizzas while simultaneously talking about how they’d beat the guy up if they saw him again, it had still left you feeling disappointed and sad

Despite yourself and your protesting you look over to the tall guy who you had found yourself staring at earlier

He really was cute, but it’d be weird to just go up to someone on their phone out of nowhere right?? I mean maybe he was doing something important right now

Well, apparently you weren’t getting any choice in this, your friends were walking you over and when you were right next to him, pushed you into his side

Startled, Suna looks up from his video and spots someone cute, you~

“Sorry! I umm, really didn’t mean to run into you like that it kinda just..”

He watches you struggle for words and can’t help the small smile on his face, and it grows a little bigger when you stumble through a pickup line

“I uh, was actually looking for something I dropped, my number you see… I sorta lost it…” you’re so embarrassed you can’t even look him in the eyes at this point. “I was wondering if I could maybe borrow yours?”

You knew you were doing a bad job, but the guy did have a little smile on his face so you were either amusing or cute like he was to you

“Yeah, I can do that. I’m Suna by the way.”

Exchanging phones and numbers quickly, and with a quick introduction yourself, you can’t help the excited grin spreading across your cheeks… even with Tanaka and Noya’s whooping in the background

Handing you back your phone, he says one last thing with a teasing look in his eyes

“I hope you asked for my number because you wanted it and not cause your friends did.” Suna pauses. “Regardless I’m glad they pushed someone so cute into me.”

With that he’s off, leaving you a flustered mess as your friends jump on top of you, demanding every detail

Amanai Kanoka

The three of you are at the gym when you spot her

Tanaka’s the one to suggest you flirt with her, they’re close friends after all

“She’s really sweet I know you’ll love her, plus I already saw you staring at her, so you gotta!”

HE KINDA JUST WANTS SOMEONE TO GO ON DOUBLE DATES WITH

Tanaka has been trying to get either you or Noya into a relationship for awhile now for that exact purpose

Today it looks like he’s focusing his attention on you solely

Noya is also joining in on the encouragement

Even though he thinks she’s a total babe, he’s already talked with her before and he thinks that you two would be a good match

It doesn’t take a lotta convincing for you to walk over to try and flirt with her

The only problem is how Tanaka failed to mention how ripped she was

But you figured it out😌

….when you walked behind her only to accidentally get bumped in the face when she turned around

Your nose is bleeding a little and you’re both freaking out but also now she’s leaning in super close to your face and woah, okay she’s super pretty

Tanaka and Noya are both by your side within seconds, freaking out with Amanai

Going to the front desk she grabs tissues for your bloody nose apologizing profusely

Tanaka introduces the both of you while Noya brings up all your skills that involve quick reacting in situations

He’s trying to cover up your obvious bad timing and judgment when you walked behind her

She’s really nice about everything though and insists on staying with you till you’re feeling 100% better

Noya starts to agree with her statement but gets stopped by Tanaka who shakes his head behind Amanai and glares at your smaller friend, gesturing between the tall girl and you

It takes a second for the dots to connect, the moment they do he’s shouting about needing to work out his lower torso

And like that your friends have left you with a wink, anxious feelings over what you should do now, and a bloody nose

Taking a deep breath you reason with yourself that its now or never

“So Amanai, do you know cpr? Because you kinda took my breath away, haha.”

It was honestly true, that hit to your face had left you breathless for a moment

She looks at you in surprise, her face going completely red

“O- oh I, well,” she thinks you’re adorable of course, she’s just surprised someone would take interest in her

Regaining composure as much as she can, she smiles and tells you that she does actually know cpr

It gets the two of you laughing and you both just talk for awhile after

By the end you both have exchanged numbers and have a date setup for the next week

Tanaka’s so freaking excited when you tell him, it’s almost like he’s the one who scored the date

[anandasamsara]

Just watched Turning Red.

Been seeing a lotta people around twitter saying they didnt like the story and such, and while i got annoyed about it, the thing that had me as an artist is when people say shit about the animation or the style.

Many people have been saying “cal arts” this and that, but like. Turning Red is an asian-american story. Have any of these people ever watched any Ghibli movie?? Bc Mei looks just like Mei from Totoro??? And its a very known and loved style of art and animation?? Im not comparing to say this is bad, to the opposite! I can see the inspiration and i think that was an amazing choice!

Anyways, that’s my two coins. Won’t get into the “minority always ends up being some kind of animal in disney movies” bc that was not my intention in this specific post.

Also, it feels very weird to relate so much with Mei as a 30 y/o woman, bc when i was 13 i used to skip class at the supermartket’s arcade near the school and go to a bar every saturday with my friends and mom only wanted me to let her know so she would not get worried about how late i got home, but now that im an adult she became as overbearing as Mei’s mom.

[shirtlesssammy]

15x15: Gimme Shelter

Then:

Dean used his words to save the world once

Now:

At a food bank community center, three teens dole out food while stressing out about one attendant who’s breaking their cleanliness rules. Connor heads over to talk to the woman, but is stopped by the center’s pastor. The pastor challenges Connor’s motivation. ”We have rules, but we also have spirit too, right?” The pastor tells Connor to lead with compassion, so Connor brings the woman food instead of kicking her out of the building. 

Later, Connor walks home. Much like all other cold open walks, this one also involves a solitary alley. He hears someone calling his name. Trying to find the source of the voice, he trips and finds a talking teddy bear, and a metal hook around his neck.

Dean and Sam discuss research. Sam’s found a non-case, while Dean’s hit the jackpot in Atlantic City. Specifically, an unexplained blackout has him thinking that Amara’s enjoying her new gambling addiction on the East Coast. 

Cas pops up and thinks he should go with the brothers, but they tell him to stay put and babysit Jack. I say TFW is just better together, but I’m not writing this episode. Hrmph. The brothers are packed and ready to go, but Jack stops them in the war room to ask about the case Sam found.

Sam tells him it’s nothing. Dean encourages Cas and Jack to investigate --to keep Jack busy. Cas seems skeptical, but Dean insists.

Agents Swift and Lovato meet with the local law enforcement to learn more about the case. Sweet Jesus is it cute that Cas continues to use pop-star names. It’s cute that Jack takes after his father with the upside down badge. It’s cute that Jack recognizes the teddy bear and says he has one (Did Cas buy it for him? He has a history of buying stuffed animals for his quasi-children.) 

The sheriff tells them about the victim, and how the word ‘Liar’ was carved into him. 

Jack posits that this all seems demonic. 

Cut to Cas digging into the ground at a crossroads. Time to get some information. Cas buries a picture of himself that Dean took when he was wearing a cowboy hat (Don’t worry, Dean still has his copy, and keeps it safe…. for reasons.) and Jack sets up a social media account. He’s WAY under 13 years old, so he needs a parent’s permission. Cas grants it easily. (Also, ALSO!! ALSO, there are NOT too many cats on the internet. This writing is so OOC, smh.) 

A demon appears. 

He’s channeling his inner Crowley, and I suddenly miss the bugger for a moment. Zach, the demon, is very bored and desperately wants something to do. He’s not really British and tells the duo that no one's making demon deals right now. Rowena’s of the philosophy that “people will end up where they belong.” Cas realizes their mistake and moves to leave.  “Sam was right, it’s not a monster,” Jack laments. “He was half right. Sometimes humans can be the worst kind of monsters,” Cas adds. 

At the community center, a woman locks up, and grabs a whole lotta cash from the donation box before she bails. Once outside, she hears a voice call her name. She looks around but sees nothing. She turns back to her car to find a masked individual. A weird editing choice cuts back to her...and commercial. 

Cas checks in with the brothers. Dean tells Cas to be wary of those “Hallelujah types” and I’m like, wha? Cas is an ANGEL OF THE LORD. He’s been around the block, Dean. Lol for looking out for your BFF, tho. Also, second awkward moment of the episode when Dean just hangs up on Cas? I’m…

Sam voices his reservations about the whole finding Amara --lying to Amara --killing Amara plan. Say it louder for the brother in the seat next to you, Sam! 

(Boris: I’m just going to insert this in the middle of this recap and never mention it again. Can we trust Billie? Is her plan actually something that is GOOD for our TFW 2.0? What is her agenda and does it align with what we want? What if what SHE wants is as equally bad as what Chuck wants? What if we as an audience are getting played right now??) (Natasha: What if the strings she’s pulling are emotional and she’s playing a dangerous game of chicken with Dean’s rage and Chuck’s entitlement?)

Jack joins the community center. He watches Dr. Sexy the pastor in a prayer circle, and talks to a disillusioned young woman who asks him to fill out a form before walking away. 

Cas walks in separately and wanders over to Dr. Sexy the pastor praying with a parishioner, and tells him about the cash stealing Valerie. She never made it home. 

Cut to Valerie tied and gagged. Her hands are in an elaborate guillotine. She wakes. Her screams are muffled. A TV turns on and flashes the word ‘Thief’. And one of her fingers gets chopped off. A timer starts on the TV. AND WE ALL RECOIL. 

Jack finishes the paperwork and tries to talk to the girls working the food line. The one girl storms off, upset. Jack follows her and tells her that he didn’t mean to upset her. 

She tells him that Connor and her dated. Well, they watched a lot of old movies together.  (AHEM! AHEM! AHEM! “I’m your Huckleberry.” AHEM. Please stop the clowning, it hurts so much.) 

Jack confesses to the girl that he lost his mother. The girl tells Jack that her mom died three years ago, and now it’s just her and her emotionally unavailable father, the pastor. “I have more dads than most, and I’m always just feeling like I’m letting all of them down.” JACK!!!! The girl tells Jack to trust God, not people. 

And we laugh, and laugh, and, guh, laugh. 

Cas, meanwhile, meets with Dr. Sexy the pastor. 

Cas interrogates Dr. Sexy Pastor about whether anyone else has gone missing recently. Well, there was one guy who used to work for the “faith-based community” but they parted ways. Cas and the pastor enjoy a little god talk. Cas, the weary angel, opines that God just doesn’t care. The pastor has a different take on faith - it’s about the people of his church doing what they can to take care of each other. We learn that this church recently changed from a fundamentalist branch to something more welcoming. Connor was able to come out as gay due to the changes, so some good happened. (Hindsight thoughts: this makes his death and the “Liar” all the more awful.) “A saint is a sinner who keeps trying,” the pastor concludes...and if that ain’t the truth about Cas!

Sam and Dean are on the too-slow train to Atlantic City when Amara drops in during a gas stop and invites them out for pierogi. 

At Patchwork, the pastor asks Jack to share his journey of faith during a prayer circle. Jack falters, and Cas steps in. “I do know what blind faith is. I used to just follow orders. Without question. And I did some pretty terrible things. I would never look beyond the plan. Then, of course, when it all came crashing down I found myself lost. I didn’t know what my purpose was anymore. And then one day something changed. Something amazing. I guess I found a family. And I became a father. And in that, I rediscovered my faith. I rediscovered who I am.” BRB crying!

Later in the cafeteria, Jack asks Sexy Pastor, M.D. how he brought together so many people with different ideas of religion. “It’s not about what they believe. It’s what they do,” he reiterates. (I imagine, for a moment, an ending where Jack calls out to the whole world and all living creatures and Heaven and Hell unite to win the final confrontation and make a better world together.)

The tranquil moment is interrupted by the TV turning on to security feed footage of the victim. The timer runs out and she loses another finger and screams and screams. Jack rushes over to the TV and pulls out a USB stick from the back.

Meanwhile, the Winchesters dine with Amara.

They bring up Chuck’s destruction of the other universes and tell her they have a plan to stop him. They’ve got a nephilim on their side AND he’s super powerful. All they need is for Amara to help them trap Chuck and...WHAMMO. Amara gently refuses to betray her brother. She lays some new mythology on them. She and Chuck are twins - creation and destruction - and their splitting apart first brought life into the world. 

Cas and Jack barge into the church’s ex-AV tech’s room. And by that, I mean, Jack gets hurled through another door? Um. Okay. The part of me that grew up with 3 Stooges is HERE FOR IT, tbh. 

They discover the guy is dead, chained up in bed with cuffs, with the word “lust” painted above him.

Getting ready to leave town, Sam’s ready to accept Amara’s choice. Dean “Fuck Acceptance” Winchester heads back inside and corners Amara. He asks why she brought back Mary. 

Amara tells him that she wanted him to see that the apple pie dream life he’s always striving for isn’t real - that Mary was only human - and BETTER because of that. Amara thought that would help him to accept his life. Amara also thought that having Mary back would release Dean from his anger. 

He leans forward and lets her know that he’s furious. Everyone in this universe is trapped, he tells her - including her. And she’s doing nothing. Amara falters in the face of this, and then asks him if she can trust him. “I would never hurt you,” he LIES TO HER FACE. She tells him she’ll think about it.

That evening Sylvia, the pastor’s daughter, listens to her friend gush over the social media attention she’s getting after posting about the torture video. In a flash of rage, Sylvia stabs her friend and races away. Dr. Sexy Pastor finds the current (still alive) victim just as Sylvia catches up to him. She accuses him of laughing at her mother after her mother died from trying to heal by prayer rather than medical science. She accuses him of changing the church that her mother grew up in. Jack jumps into the fray and gets stabbed for his trouble. When Cas arrives, Sylvia is quickly subdued by his Vulcan forehead tap of slumber.

Cas yanks away the restraints from the victim (SOOOO strong) and then heals her fingers back on while the pastor looks on in wonder. 

For So Strong Science:

Later, they gather outside while Sylvia gets taken away in cuffs. The pastor still cares about his daughter and vows to get her help. The driver of the car is Zach the crossroads demon? Oookay. 

Cas and Jack drive home. In the truck of feelings, Cas asks Jack why he couldn’t share during the prayer circle. Jack confesses that he’s been lying. The spell Billie is doing with him is turning him into a bomb to be used against Chuck and Amara. It’ll work - they’ll cease to exist. But Jack will be obliterated too. “This is the only way they’ll ever forgive me,” he tells Cas. 

Cas is horrified. He can’t watch Jack die again! Cas refuses to watch Jack die again, but Jack seems to have fully embraced this as his necessary fate.

Back at the bunker, Dean heads for the whiskey bottle late at night when he spots Cas shuffling towards the exit. Jack’s settled in his room, Cas reports. Cas then tells Dean he’s going to look for “another way.” 

Oh AND, “In case something goes wrong and I don’t make it back, there’s something you and Sam need to know…” 

FADE. TO. BLACK.  

The Se7en Deadly Quotes:

You guys go Highway to Heaven that bitch

You look greener than Baby Yoda

“Did anyone find any tiny bags with chicken bones inside?” “Did anyone smell sulfur?” “Did anyone feel cold?”

There were too many cats

Where can I find the Kool-Aid?

I wanted you to see that your mother was just a person

It was a gift, Dean. Not a trial

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February 20, 2021: An Affair to Remember (1957) (Part 1)

OK, Sleepless in Seattle, I’m calling your bluff.

In case you don’t remember, this film was a major part of Sleepless in Seattle, inspiring its climax. It also acted as a focal point for several conversations in the film, as well as one of its most iconic (and funniest) moments, seen above. But  how I am “calling its bluff?”

See, Sleepless maintained that only women understand why this movie is great, and I obviously challenge that assessment, being of the man variety. So, yeah, let’s go! Seriously, after the last movie, I’m ready for something that I could actually enjoy, so let’s start it UP. SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

Recap

Vic Damone sings us in, as we see 1959-era Central Park, still pretty damn recognizable. On the news that night, we find out that Nicolò “Nickie” Ferrante (Cary Grant), a big game hunter, is getting married to a...”beautiful tomata with a lotta lettuce,” as news reporter Robert Q. Lewis (Robert Q. Lewis) says. Said vegetable-person is Lois Clark (Neva Patterson).

Ferrante’s on a cruise, and is extremely famous for whatever reason. However, it would appear that h’s also a inveterate playboy, as revealed by a call from a woman enraged that he’s getting married. Shortly afterwards, he’s greeted by Ned Hathaway (Charles Watts), his neighbor on the cruise, but he rushes out when he notices that his cigarette case is missing.

It’s been found by Terry McKay (Deborah Kerr), and the two meet and have  conversation. Ever the playboy, he wishes to speak with her, and she’s mostly OK with it. And of course, Nickie...yeah, Nickie hits on her, and she’s not not interested. And, of course...here comes the shadows of infidelity.

INFIDELITY. ALWAYS WITH THE GODDAMN INFIDELITY! Nickie’s playboy, so I guess I shouldn’t have expected anything less. And...ugh, it is the 1950s. Doesn’t make it OK, obviously, but I guess I should’ve expected this. Anyway, Terry objects, as she’s also in a relationship, with a rather wealthy gentleman at that. And yet, despite this, she still proposes having dinner with him.

They two begin a friendship, and if I know anything about these stories, it’s gonna become a bit more than just a friendship. The next morning, they both receive letters from their partners, but quickly brush those off to speak with each other about their pasts and their lives.

And even though their relationship involves infidelity, I’m absolutely sure, the two have quite a bit of chemistry. Like...really good chemistry. And they seem to recognize this as well, as Terry notes that they can’t be seen with each other. This is, of course, as a would-be paparazzo takes their picture together.

They encounter each other again when they help a child caught on the stairs. Cute kid. They arrive at the bar separately, and both order the same drink of rose champagne, which sounds pretty good to me. But at fear of gossippers on the ship, they once again part ways with each other.

However, to the delight of the shipgoers (and admittedly to me), they end up getting seated next to each other at dinner, back-to-back.

Embarrassed by the ABSOLUTE ASSHOLES ON THIS SHIP, GODDAMN, Terry leaves the dining hall. But of course, the two incidentally find each other AGAIN in the pool, as the ship itself gets close to a French port, Villefranche-sur-Mer. There, Nickie is set to meet his grandmother. Terry doesn’t believe that, so he invited her to meet her. She accepts, and they head into the definitely-not-romantic little village together.

Well, Nickie was telling the truth, as they meet his grandmother, Janou (Cathleen Nesbitt), who’s only 16 years older than Cary Grant, so...yeah, why not make her his mother, rather than grandmother? Weird choice, there, but whatever. She’s been praying in the chapel, likely to remember her lost husband as well. Terry asks if she can see it, and Janou gladly lets her. Nickie soon follows.

And this is a...it’s a nice little quiet moment. Not entirely quiet, as there’s some nice music in the background. But there’s no dialogue here. Just a quiet moment of prayer. It’s quite sweet, to be honest. Once the two leave, they spend more time with Nickie’s grandmother, and he gives her a portrait of her late husband, which he himself has painted. And DAMN, it’s a good painting!

For her part, Terry sings the French version of the opening song to Janou’s piano playing, but the boat whistle sounds, ending their visit altogether. And seeing this side of Nickie’s life is eye-opening for Terry, and Nickie is likewise intrigued with Terry. Well...it might be infidelity...but damn me if they don’t have a strong connection.

And they’re definitely feeling that, too. Terry initially refuses, but then draws Nickie in for the kiss on the stairs, which is offscreen in a GORGEOUS shot. They part ways, but they continue to see each other over the course of the ship, both professing that they miss each other. They try to keep out of the public eye, but their connection is still obviously strong.

However, this is complicated when Mr. Hathaway shows up and reveals that the ship’s photographer is selling pictures of them to everybody on the ship, which is amusing to nearly everyone on the ship. I tell you, this goddamn ship is a toxic dating environment, and these people are the nosiest busybodies in the world.

They decide to abandon their caution, and go dancing together with everyone else. They share a romantic dance alone on the deck, but Terry stops, realizing how transient this affair is. They have a moment together, and that’s when one of the most iconic scenes of the film takes place. You know...

It’s quite a good line, and is prefaced by a proposal from Nickie. And I do mean a marriage proposal, of sorts. See, the two realize that they both have a certain standard of living, and that abandoning their prospective spouses for each other would mean sacrifice and lifestyle change. But for love, they’re willing to do it.

The next day, the ship reaches New York City. They agree that, if things work out, they will meet each other in six months, at the top of the Empire State Building. They kiss goodbye, while Terry worries that something may happen. But perish the thought.

With that, the two part ways with their respective partners, albeit unwillingly, and we reach the midway point.

See you in Part 2!

[augustheads]

taylor swift asks!

debut: when did you find out your life’s passion?

fearless: what is one thing you did that scared you but you did it anyway?

speak now: what is something you did by yourself that you are most proud of?

red: what life event put through through hell but you ended up better for it?

1989: what makes you feel most free/at ease?

reputation: have you ever had a bunch of people believe a lie about you? how did you deal with it?

lover: what type of love means the most to you right now?

beautiful eyes: what cheesy/lame thing gives you joy?

the holiday collection: what is your favorite holiday?

meredith, olivia & benjamin: what animal do you identify with most? why?

13: what superstition do you hold on to the most?

polaroids: what retro/vintage thing do you particularly enjoy?

hot glue gun scar: what is the funniest injury you ever got?

mean or shake it off: do you like to stand up for yourself to people who are rude to you or do you just move on from them?

b-stage: what acoustic/lowkey song gives you the most comfort?

sparkly dresses: what is your favorite unconventional clothing in your wardrobe?

baking: what is your favorite food to make? includes drinks, food, dessert, etc.

grammys: what is your biggest achievement?

tim mcgraw: what old work of yours are you still proud of to this day? it can be a poem, an edit, a painting, an essay, an award you won in elementary school!

love story: what classic tale would you want to change? fairytales, plays, movies, etc!

long live: do you have someone who has been your rock for many years? the answer can be your mom, your cat, your best friend, even you!

all too well: what do you remember like it was yesterday?

clean: have you struggled with letting something/someone go? how did you get out? or how do you plan on letting go?

i did something bad: what is something you did that people told you you shouldn’t have but you nonetheless enjoyed it?

a girl called girl: what did you create when you were young that you are surprised by today?

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christmas tree farm: how did where you grew up shape you into who you are?

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taylor: how do you reference Taylor Swift to your friends/family? first-name basis? her full name?

incredible things: what are 3 things off of the top of your head that make you go “wow”?

secret messages: what does no one know about you? this can be lighthearted! 

F. Scott Fitzgerald: favourite author?

Neruda: favourite poet?

the story’s got dust on every page: what is your favourite book or short story?

why she disappeared: what is your favourite poem?

red lipstick: what style choice does everyone know you for?

so overnight you look like a sixties' queen: which taylor album aesthetic do you like the most?

sharpie eyeliner: what beauty faux pas have you made?

painting: favourite hobby?

candid: favourite candid?

superstar: favourite red carpet look?

old fashioned: (if you have had alcohol before) favourite cocktail? if not, favourite soda/carbonated beverage?

drinking beer out of plastic cups: (if you have had alcohol before) favourite beer? if not, favourite juice?

i'm spilling wine in the bathtub: (if you have had alcohol before) favourite wine? if not, tea or coffee?

chicken tenders: what could you eat everyday?

cheesecake: favourite food?

love actually: favourite movie?

little mermaid: childhood hero?

12/13/89: what is your birthday? bonus for telling us your astrological sign!

country accent: what old habit did you have makes you cringe now?

chai tea eggnog cookies: favorite dessert?

voice memo: how to you record important things? 

double jointed elbows: what is your “party trick” or just a weird thing you can do/your body does?

teffy: what weird nickname do you have/have you had?

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track 5: favourite track 5?

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[yeahwellyourface]

MOVIE REVIEW TIME!! A Little Chaos and Far From The Madding Crowd

I had a Matthias Schoenaerts weekend cause the boy can get it. Both of these movies were already on my list, but when I realized he was in them, they jumped to the top. So, here we go.

A Little Chaos

Available on Netflix. Directed by Alan Rickman. Stars: Kate Winslet, Matthias Schoenaerts, Alan Rickman, Stanley Tucci, Helen McCrory, and Jennifer Ehle

IMDb: https://www.imdb.com/title/tt2639254/?ref_=nv_sr_srsg_0

This one has been on my list for awhile but I really wasn’t in the mood for a depressing period piece. FYI, it is not a depressing period piece. In fact, the word I think works best for describing it is “cute.” It is not a great film, but it is very enjoyable. I smiled through most of it and then when I turned it off, I realized I was still smiling.

The basic plot is that French king Louis XIV is building Versailles and his head gardener, Andre Le Notre, is hiring different gardeners to do different parts of the whole since it is a whole lotta shit. Against his original idea, he hires Madame Sabine de Barra to create a section of the garden that will basically be an outdoor ballroom. She doesn’t do well at court, but some people still like her, some don’t. Given that there is an actual outdoor ballroom at Versailles, I don’t think I’m giving anything away by saying that she eventually builds it (although in actuality, it was not built by a woman…unfortunately). But that’s it. It is a very simple little movie. It is full of tropes and could be quite stupid but the amazing cast makes it charming instead.

So, the fantastic cast…everyone is basically doing exactly what you want them to do. Kate Winslet as Sabine de Barra plays a woman who has been through some shit but is gonna get things done her way and it is no use to try and stop her. She is better than you. Just accept it. Matthias Schoenaerts as Andre Le Notre is mainly there to look pretty (difficult with that horrible hair, but he can do it) and worship de Barra as she deserves. Alan Rickman plays Louis XIV because why the fuck not. Stanley Tucci plays the king’s outlandish bisexual brother who adores both his wife and his young lover. He was in the movie for like 10 minutes and was the best thing ever. Seriously, we need to protect Stanley Tucci at all costs. Helen McCrory is Madame Le Notre and is a bad bitch as only she can be. I bow down to her. Jennifer Ehle plays against type as the flighty mistress to the king. I thought I was going to hate her because the character was supposed to be annoying at first, but I ended up loving her too.

So, yeah. Not a movie to go nuts over, but if you are curled up on the couch one afternoon and want something light and sweet, this will do the trick.

Far From The Madding Crowd

Available on Amazon (but you have to pay for it, even with prime). Based on the novel by Thomas Hardy. Directed by Thomas Vinterberg. Stars: Carey Mulligan, Matthias Schoenaerts, Michael Sheen, Tom Sturridge, Juno Temple.

IMDb: https://www.imdb.com/title/tt2935476/?ref_=nv_sr_srsg_0

This is another one I’ve been considering for awhile. See that bit above where it says “Based on the novel by Thomas Hardy?” Yeah….that’s why I was putting it off. Now, it’s not that I dislike Thomas Hardy. I actually enjoyed Return of the Native…kinda. But his stuff is very much overdramatic, windswept English countryside. And damn, if that is not something that I am always willing to go for. But I’d do it for Matthias Schoenaerts. So I did.

So, here is the basic plot if you’ve never read the book (and I actually haven’t, but I’ve read about it…does that count?)…young woman, Bathsheba Everdene, with a middle-to-upper class education lives with family on a farm because her parents died. She meets a young man, Gabriel Oak, and then enjoy hanging out and working on the farm together. He has land that is almost paid off and a bunch of sheep. Her aunt owns the land that they live on and work. He falls in love and asks her to marry him. She says no, she doesn’t want to get married and be tied down to a husband. Immediately after, their fortunes reverse. He loses all his sheep (and it’s kinda horrible and depressing, so if you need to look away, I understand) and his land. She inherits a pretty nice farm and is no longer dependent on family. He’s wandering looking for work and accidentally stumbles on her new farm and gets a job as a shepherd there.

Now that she is moving among the landed class, she meets the next door neighbor, Mr. Boldwood, who falls in love with her (the way that happens is she plays a prank on him and is generally an asshole and hurts him and damn, woman, wtf, that was mean…but she does apologize). He asks her to marry him. She says she’ll think about it.

Mixed in with this, we see a side story about an army sergeant and his pretty sweetheart, who used to work at the Everdene farm but ran away to be with the guy…never a good move. They were supposed to get married, but she went to the wrong church. By the time she gets to the right church, he thinks she stood him up and has left. She is now destitute since she left her friends and family. This was another scene where I couldn’t bear to watch. I knew what was going to happen and seeing them both so happy getting ready for the wedding just broke my heart, so I fast forwarded. Sue me.

Anyway, army sergeant Frank Troy is now wandering drunk around the countryside brokenhearted and literally runs into Miss Everdene. She thinks he’s cute and decides to meet up with him. He shows off flashy sword moves and then kisses her and pulls a trump and then runs off. Because we do stupid things sometimes, she is completely charmed by him and runs away to marry him.

Now, through all of this, Mr. Oak has worked for her and been there for her and tried to help her and give advice. He points out that she was an asshole to Mr. Boldwood and she gets pissed at him for telling her because she knows she was and she doesn’t want to be told. He knows that Sergeant Troy is an asshole and tries to convince Miss Everdene to stay away from him but she doesn’t.

Literally at her wedding dinner with Sergeant Troy, Miss Everdene (Mrs. Troy now) realizes that she married and asshole. But she’s stuck with him.

If you really want me to tell you the rest in detail, I will. But basically, she has to deal with an asshole husband, a rich neighbor who is still in love with her (and kinda off his rocker about it), and the shepherd who has loved her for years and been there to support her even when she was an asshole to him. I wonder who she will end up with?!?!Okay, now for the movie. It was just okay. Like, I’ve read the first couple chapters of the book and there is SO MUCH INFORMATION that cannot be put into a movie. There is just not enough time. This is the problem with turning a book into a movie. They have to skip so much that they can end up leaving a lot of it flat. We see Miss Everdene be a good person several times. But we also see her be an asshole. I wish we had been able to see her more indepth. But there wasn’t time. I never felt fully connected to her. When she was being good, I liked her. When she was being an asshole, I disliked her. There was no continuity between those feelings. The movie never gave me a chance to feel conflicted over her. It was all surface feelings. Carey Mulligan does a good enough job for what she is given. But the best relationship is between her and her companion. That’s the only string that carries through with that character.

Matthias Schoenaerts is beautiful, of course. He is the solid character that all the others are whirling around. He is a big man, much bigger and taller than Carey Mulligan and Michael Sheen, but you can see how he curls his shoulders down to give the two of them more power as he is lower class than they are. There is a scene between him and Michael Sheen near the end where he straightens Sheen’s tie, and I think that is the only moment between those two where Schoenaerts stands up straight, as for a moment, they are almost equals. However, by the end of the scene, he is curled in again. It’s really interesting on the choices made there. Because when he is not in a position where he is “under” them, when he is working and being damn good at his job, he is standing up straight. It’s fascinating to see the difference between the two sides of this character.

Michael Sheen. Oh goodness, Michael Sheen. He did so much better for this character than this movie deserved. I love this man and he is so good as an actor, but this character is a bit out there. I wonder how much of his bipolarness is in the book. Cause the character is all over the place in the movie. He goes from one extreme to the next. And yes, some of the plot points are definitely from the book, but the in between stuff….is he really like that? So, Sheen does a great job with what he is given, again. But the character is just so weird and again, very little continuity throughout.

Tom Sturridge plays Sergeant Troy. This character is a huge asshole and Tom Sturridge plays him perfectly. If I met Tom Sturridge on the street, I would want to slap him because I hate him. That is a good sign for an actor.

Juno Temple…another one I love. She is slowly becoming a bigger name, but deserves so much more. In this, she plays Fannie, Sergeant Troy’s first sweetheart. He didn’t deserve her. And I love Juno Temple, so she can do no wrong.

Overall, it’s an okay movie. I won’t pay for it again. I rented it and I’m glad I didn’t buy it. But if it comes on tv, I’ll watch it. If you want to watch it, you won’t hate it. But I don’t recommend running out and grabbing it any which way. The cinematography was BEAUTIFUL. The way they used light was lovely.

So, since I mentioned Matthias Schoenaerts as my reason for going ahead and watching these, lemme talk about my feelings for him in these. He is very strange. Watching interviews with him and seeing his artwork, he seems to be a ball of chaotic energy, but in both of these movies, he is the calm figure that the others bounce around. I watched the beginning of Rust and Bone, but then my internet went out and I wasn’t able to finish it without paying for it again (which I intend to do). And of course, I ADORE The Old Guard. That’s another one where he plays against what seems to be his personality type. I also love The Drop (seriously, one of my all-time favorite movies and if you haven’t seen it, go watch it NOW). That character seems to be a bit more on his level with the chaos, but I hope not with the assholeishness.

Either way, he was stunningly beautiful in these movies. Kate Winslet adored working with him and says that he was so sweet about their sex scene because she was pregnant and felt like shit. His hair is awful in A Little Chaos, but I’ll forgive him, this time.

Anyway, watch A Little Chaos at some point. And I guess you should watch Far From The Madding Crowd at some point too, but don’t pay for it if you don’t have to. Go watch The Old Guard and The Drop RIGHT NOW. Those are much better movies of his. Go watch Rust and Bone and I will watch the rest of it soon.

In A Little Chaos.  Seriously....why would they do this with his hair.

And in Far From The Madding Crowd.  See....much better. And I see you, dude in the background looking at him. I agree, he is definitely a snack.

[daincrediblegg]

Can you please feed us some GORGEOUS Gen x Arthur hc's ????? Because we love you and we love Arthur and we stan our OTP. Please and thanks xp [I got'chu, boo

Genevieve x Arthur Fleck Headcanons

lmao LMAO LMAO ok so... idk what this is??? this is just how we are irl. ain’t no real scenario around it, but it still serves as a basic breakdown of our relationship as it’s unfolded the last 7 months or so. Thank you for giving me a platform to share this lmao. Sorry if it’s cringey and personal as hell, but hey, that’s life, and y’all know I don’t give a fuck by now.

We met in October. I’d snuck into a showing of Joker with my dad after the premier of Zombieland 2, and watched his story unfold. I couldn’t get him out of my head the whole night. I saw him again a little less than a week later, and I’d realized I’d wanted more. We’d agreed to meet for coffee the next day.

The next couple of weeks was just pure fascination with each other. I poured my heart into learning everything about him, and he seemed so genuinely interested in learning all he could about me too. 

Even though I was going through what’s easily been one of the most harrowing mental health crises that I’ve ever experienced… he fell quick for me, and hard. And I did too. He… he made me feel like I wasn’t alone. We were leading very similar lives (minus, y’know, murder- on my end), and knowing that he felt my pain when it seemed like not a whole lot of people really did… it made me feel seen. And it didn’t take long for things to get really heated. We’ve been together ever since.

He’s the one that got me to start taking my medication. I’d never been on antidepressants, and I was a little scared of the side-affects since the only other ones I’d tried made me dizzy and out of breath (and I’m a massive hypochondriac on top of all the other shit I’ve got going on in my head). But he convinced me that I was worth living for, and that was the little push I needed. I knew I wanted to get better, but he’d convinced me that I could. 

I drew him a lot those first few months we were together. His physicality still entrances me to this day. His elegance, yet this almost distinctly cartoonish poise and his innocence… he inspired me a lot. More than I had been in months. He’s shy about being the subject of a lot of my drawings… but he lets me anyway because he’s amazed at how it shows how I see him (which is fucking beautiful, like a disney prince thank you very much). 

We spent a lot of those first few months just lying in bed after a long day of writing and drawing, holding each other close and talking. About everything. It all felt so freeing to me that I could say just about anything to him and have him actually listen without judgement. And sure, he has his opinions, but he doesn’t dismiss mine.  

We did so much together too. We used to go to movies (not just his lmao), we got hot chocolates together and walked around town during christmas time.

For Christmas he gave me a beautiful necklace- a pretty blue/green pendant on a gold chain (that y’all might’ve seen in some of my selfies- and I wear it DAILY) and a silver bracelet with little red roses and garnets on it. They’re some of the best presents I’ve ever gotten. 

I gave him a scarf (that I’d worn out to work for weeks so that it’d smell like me at his request) and some chocolate.

I was also dealing with quite a few health problems those first few months, so he’s well versed in all my medical bullshit lmao.

I’ve got a weird bladder that just constantly feels infected (even though it’s actually not most of the time), which means that we can’t have penetrative sex sometimes (but we’re just as happy to touch each other in different ways even when I can’t stand to go all the way).

I was still having some panic attacks when I was on a higher dosage of my medication, and he’s very good at bringing me down from them. He holds me close and tells me to breathe slowly and deeply with him until I calm down and start to feel okay- even when I get super fidget-y from it. I can’t begin to thank him enough for helping me through it all as he has.

We don’t argue much. We see eye-to-eye where it counts, so we hardly ever get into moral disputes. But when we do it’s usually when I’m in a depressive rut and I’ve gone distant. He’s never raised his voice at me when it happens, but some heated conversations have spawned from it. And I’ll admit I’m not the most eloquent with these things sometimes. And I’ve said things that I didn’t mean to hurt him but just to say with honesty. He knows I have doubts sometimes. He does too, but we’ve been able to work through them well enough-better than most I imagine.

We uh… we have a lot of sex. No surprise.

We’re virgins (well, technically. At least with the opposite sex). We’re horny. We’ve got high sex drives and we’re not afraid to take it out on each other.

I’ve had a lot of body anxiety in the past, but with Arthur it feels even more non-existent than it’s ever been. He really loves my body. Not in a fetish-y way like a lot of guys have hinted at in the past. When I’m with him I really feel like his desire for me comes from love, that my body isn’t just a thing to get him off, but rather that he desires me for who and what I am, and I haven’t really ever felt that even with any of the other FICTIONAL guys I’ve been with before.

And he knows that I love him just the same. Body and soul. It’s a total two-way street. And we never feel the need to change for each other one bit. For that I’m so grateful god I could fucking cry.

And it’s made me do a lot of things that I kinda didn’t want or thought were inaccessible to me before I met him. I fucking wear lacy bras and matching panties (for the first time in my life!!!) on the reg because Arthur said that I deserved to have them if I wanted them (not to mention that I look beautiful in them to him), and now I’m coming around to the idea of putting on a little makeup ‘cause it makes me feel really pretty and Arthur agrees???? Like this MAN has really made me flourish for the better tbh I love him so fucking much. 

Before the pandemic he used to meet me at my regular haunt to watch me work after his gig for the day. He’d sit across from me and watch me fumble around with all my outlines and notes, sometimes taking out his own journal himself while he steals some of my coffee, taking my hand and running a thumb over it idly.

He really enjoys my screenwriting. My writing is very exciting, he says. He’s really supportive of my career choice, even though it’s still a long ways off from being anything tangible or serious. And he’s very supportive of the things I’ve written about him too. He doesn’t mind as long as some things get to stay just between us (and by and large he says I’ve done a pretty good job of that lmao). 

I sing for him a lot. We dance together too. I’ve always been a singer for as long as I can remember but being so depressed so long I didn’t really as much as I’d have liked. But for him I sing just about every day. Lotta swing-jazz numbers like from Frank Sinatra and Bing Crosby and Caro Emerald. Some classic rock like Elton John and Billy Joel and Jethro Tull. He says he likes the way I sing their songs the best. Idk if I agree with him, but I believe him. 

He says we’re a dynamic duo in a way. Like since he dances and I sing, we’re a complete show. It’s the cutest fucking shit he’s ever said to me 

We kind of agreed to get married once the lockdown’s over. Neither of us really proposed to the other, exactly. We had been thinking about it for months (we’ve been talking about it since Christmas lmao- he’s said he wants to marry me so many times), but the first few weeks of this lockdown thing were really hard on me. It all felt very harrowing with everything changing all at once. 

And it was really touch-and-go for us. It was harder for me to feel him. And sure it had been hard before but it was… not quite as bad as this was. I almost thought we were done. 

But he stuck around, and helped me through it as much as he could despite how numb I was feeling. And he was still there when the dust settled, even stronger than before. So I told him one morning that I wanted to get married when all of this was over, and he agreed. 

So once the shelter in place order is lifted, we’re gonna go to the same jewlery shop he got me my favorite necklace, and pick out some rings. I for one am very excited.

And until then we’re perfectly content to enjoy this break from our normal everyday lives with each other. Even though it’s been harder for me to write we’re pulling through this whole thing just fine. 

[saintsandsiinners]

full name: elyse alkisti diamond

nickname: el, lyse

stage name: shelly bellaire

age: twenty-three

date of birth: september 30th

place of birth: boston, mass.

zodiac: libra

gender: cis-female

nationality: greek-hispanic american

sexual orientation: pansexual

romantic orientation: panromantic

relationship status: single

PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES.

height:  5′’6’

weight: 210lbs

hair color: dark brown

eye color: brown

need glasses/contacts? no

tattoos: has “fuck off” tattooed on the side of her left middle finger, has “reach for the stars” tattooed on her right middle finger, has the greek word for diamond tattooed on her left hip.

piercings: both of her nipples are pierced as well as her tongue. both of her ears are pierced, three holes each and there’s a cartilage piercing on her right ear.

distinguishing marks: freckles, freckles, freckles. she has a scar on her right knee from where she fell off her bike when she was little.

BACKGROUND INFORMATION.

hometown: boston, mass.

current residence: dayton, ca

past residences: san diego, ca.

living arrangement: has her own apartment.

spoken languages: english, greek, spanish

financial status: fairly well off.

education level: high school diploma, currently working on a bachelor’s degree in math.

occupation: porn star

FAMILIAL INFORMATION.

father: tobias diamond ( 70 ),

mother: aliki diamond ( 52 ),

siblings: juliette ( 43 ), cole ( 39 ), xanthi ( 29 ), evan (deceased), george ( 25 )

children: none

pets? none

other: n/a

PERSONALITY.

positive traits: opinionated, outgoing, friendly, verbose, confident, adventurous.

negative traits: stubborn, judgmental, impulsive

likes: the color black, fishnet stockings. going braless. showing off her nipple piercings. dancing. drinking. being taken care of. getting recognized for one of her films. tattoos (a lot, they’re a weakness for her on other people). the witching hour. tarot cards. video games. arcade games. reading. math. red sox.

dislikes: bullies. cats. roller coasters. bats. anything that flies. motorcycles. ignorance. yankees (and most other sports). daisies. romance novels.

quirks: she almost always has gum with her because she’s constantly chewing a piece to satiate her oral fixation.

HISTORY

being a diamond is one of elyse’s things about her life. born and raised in boston, elyse hails from a greek-hispanic american background. her father is spanish-american while her mother was born and raised in greece. an eclectic combination and one might wonder how a beautiful greek goddess ever managed to land a Lothario like her father. truth is? her mother was his nanny, hired to watch his children from a previous marriage. her mother merely used the nanny job as a way to make extra money because her true love and passion in life is bound in writing scripts for adult films (tentacle porn is her favorite genre). long story short, it was a match made in heaven and before long, her mother and father married and voila, elyse was born six years after they married.

a precocious individual, elyse is a perfect balance of her father’s determination and her mother’s confidence. she’s tenacious and isn’t afraid to speak her mind. to grow up in a world of social media where your every move is tracked, watched and ridiculed, her childhood was rough in the simple light of cruel children. because she didn’t fit the norm. she wasn’t skinny. she had big hair and buck teeth and braces until she was sixteen. she had big, round glasses and just because she wore her clothes just a little bit tight meant she was asking for some.

elyse has always been quick to cut down bullies. they’re the worst of the worst and she never took kindly to being bullied herself. suspensions and detentions were always dolled out and only because she defended herself from naysayers and assholes who thought they were better than her just because they could run five miles without getting winded. nobody should ever have to run five miles. it’s ungodly. inhumane. she’ll get on a treadmill with the rest of ‘em, but she’ll never willingly run - not even to save her own damn life.

during her senior year of high school, she participated and hosted several anti-bullying rallies in boston. bullying statistics that year were knocked down 12% because of her efforts and ever since then, she makes it a point to participate in as many anti-bullying seminars as she’s able to attend.

she was fairly active as a kid. she was always outside. when she wasn’t outside, she had her nose stuck in a math book and for extra credit in high school, she tutored several of her classmates who were falling behind.

giacomo ambrogino was her first love, and one of the jocks she had to tutor, and he’ll always have a place in her heart. their relationship hadn’t been easy, considering how bigoted some people could be - especially in high school. the fat girl and the jock. they were a constant joke.

her brother, evan, was killed when elyse was still in high school. he just disappeared one day, never to be heard from again and a few years later, elyse learned the truth. killed by a member of the ambrogino family because of what her brother (who’d always been a little off in the head) had done to his daughter. this truth put a strain on her relationship with giacomo and eventually, they called it quits and went their separate. elyse still checks up on him from time to time to see how he’s doing just because a relationship like theirs you don’t really forget.

she had a brief stint as a camgirl when she turned eighteen. her parents were not happy about the camgirl thing when they found out, so elyse eventually ended up in the adult film industry. her mother writes films for the same industry, but they worked under two different umbrellas because starring in films your mother writes is just weird. elyse made quite a household name for herself as ‘shelly bellaire’ in upwards of fifteen movies, including “A Lotta Lizards” and “ Lumpy Bar Sluts and the Mistress of Spankville”.  

she moved to dayton a couple of years ago. in part to see what life on the ‘west coast’ was like and because it helped her be closer to most of her film locations. flying back and forth to boston can get costly and this move just seemed like the best choice.

occasionally, elyse will pick up a role here and there, though not as much as she used to. she does travel because of this, so there may be weeks at a time when she’s not in dayton for this reason.

[princesssarcastia]

Leverage International

Soooooo I just rewatched the leverage finale, and GOD what a wonderful sandbox to play in. I still want a season six or a movie tbh, there’s such a wonderful story there that I trust them to tell.  But in the meantime...

I think it was @smokeandsong who referred to leverage as “millennial revenge porn,” and they were ABSOLUTELY RIGHT. 

Step one: I know people have said this before, but obviously this is a dichotomous setup: we have the ot3 running cons and crossing evil rich dudes off their list on one side, and Nate and Sophie running around Europe, Most Definitely Retired, Yes Siree, on the other. 

(Nate could not retire if his life depended on it, let’s be real, and Sophie is absolutely willing to enable his robin hood tendencies)

Step two: Leverage International

See, in the finale the ot3 talked about how every crew in the world was gonna want a piece of that action. so I think it would be cool to see a whole range of thieves, hitters, hackers, grifters, all coming to Parker and hardison and Elliot for a piece of that action

some of them are in it for the money, sure.  but some of them want a piece of that millennial revenge.  Nate was right; the men and women on this list broke the world, and the only reason they got away with it was because they were rich.  they fucked a whole lotta people over.  I wanna see those people not just coming to leverage for help, but taking action themselves

There’s the bby!hacker who comes to them for help taking on the real estate mogul that got their family's house foreclosed back in ‘08

the lesbian couple that took to grifting to make ends meet, a la Debbie ocean, and get in over their heads with an awful banker dude 

the young disillusioned political activist who needs help hacking the government to ensure government workers get the pension funds they were promised by their state

and all of these thieves and hacker and grifters and hitters who join up with leverage for a heist, I want most of them to irrefutably ascribe to a post-modern sense of identity.  like, I’m talking every color of the literal rainbow and the LGBTQ+ rainbow, I want this to be the most blatantly diverse cast ever seen on TV, no doubt about it.  

 now they are absolutely going after rich bastards. as anyone can tell you, though, those bastards have some pretty suspicious links to the government.  and in some cases, they are the government! revolving door, anyone? (where’s that chart, about the percentage of millionaires in congress versus the percentage of the us pop that are millionaires) so as time goes on, their heists get closer and closer to the government, involve taking down more and more corrupt politicians.  

I mean, this wouldn't exactly be new ground for the show.  They’ve touched on shady corporate-government ties before, called people out about donations and voting and such.  but I want it to be a fucking pattern. 

Step Three: Sterling.

It seems to me that, no matter who he’s playing, all of Mark Sheppard’s characters fall firmly into the lawful column of the alignment chart. good, evil, whatever; he may be an opportunist, but in the blackened cockles of his heart he loves to thrive within a defined set of rules, and ensure that his enemies get trapped by the very same. 

So here is Jim “Lawful good/lawful neutral leaning” Sterling, agent of Interpol.  Sterling who, when we last saw him, was absolutely paying back his debt to Nate, but also said that justice is always easy. Who is maybe willing to bend the rules sometimes, but also kinda likes to play the righteous man, who probably imagines himself the Holmes to nate’s moriarty. 

Jim Sterling, who spends his time solving cases around the world and occasionally being harassed by Nate and Sophie (because why not), or being called to take out the trash when Nate and Sophie are done with someone (because really, these rich assholes make it so easy).  

Jim Sterling, who, as he spends more and more time with Interpol, finds himself running into people within his organization, within the governments of countries he’s operating in, within cooperating organizations, within suspect multinational corporations, that aren't even manipulating the system, they’r just flat-out ignoring it! Who really, truly just...use their money and influence to get away with some really awful shit.  And that bugs the shit out of his lawful little heart.

So maybe he kicks one or two people Nate and Sophie’s way.  Just a little bit.  Leaves them a name, lets them overhear a conversation, looks in the other direction...maaaayyybbeee leaves a door open once or twice.  Always with plausible deniability, of course, but he imagines that these corrupt rule-ignorers are getting their just desserts in the end.  Justice is always an easy choice.

Except, as Sterling spends more and more time at Interpol, he finds himself brushing up at the edges of...something.  People knowing each other who shouldn't, stonewalling from his superiors when they should be giving him a green light, loopholes in the system that shouldn't logically be there stopping him from bringing someone to justice.  It is incredibly frustrating. 

Step Four: The Paradise Papers

You know, that large, multi-continent-spanning, numerous-corporations-and-politicans-incriminating conspiracy uncovered by the International Consortium of Investigative Journalists about tax havens and fraud, etc., that nobody gave a shit about?

Apparently, the whole thing was kicked off by an anonymous Reddit user dropping hints

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

It’s interesting, actually; one of the major U.S. official connected with these papers was Gary Cohen, former chief economic advisor to Trump, and former chief operating officer of Goldman Sachs during the 2008 financial crisis. 

EVERYTHIGN IS CONNECTED. WE COME FULL CIRCLE.

six months ago:

Sterling kept up with feeding people to Nate and Sophie to chew up and spit out, and started dropping hints about the weird conspiracy he was running up against 

Hardison, Parker, and Eliot have resorted to putting up a giant red-stringed conspiracy board in the back room of the pub because this shit is so complicated and difficult to keep track of.

Eventually, ot3 follows the money to someone sterling recently kicked Nate and Sophie’s way, except it’s way bigger than they thought it was. they’re gonna need a bigger boat

At this point, they call on the friends and allies they've made along the way taking down the smaller fish on the list, and together they uncover this MASSIVE CONSPIRACY involving LITERALLY EVERY RICH PERSON EVERY JESUS CHRIST

(behind every great fortune is a great crime.  the same crime, apparently, all these rich people are involved in the SAME FUCKING CONSPIRACY WHAT THE FUCK)

Hardison starts vaguebloggin on Reddit because Sterling tipped them off that once again, the governments of the world knew and shrugged it off, so they need to hang them in the court of public opinion.  what better way to do so than setting a league of journalists on them?

The Team, Serendipitously Reunited On The Job, work together to infiltrate the offshore law firm responsible for covering everything up which is definitely not called appleby and get ahold of the documents they need to incriminate everyone, paired with the stuff in the black book.  there’s a surprising amount of overlap between these documents and the black book, which was Definitely Not Part Of The Plan

(in this world of gratuitous millennial revenge porn, of course, people sit up and give a fuck, instead of what happened in the real world, which is nothing)

so what do we get? “Endless parades of bankers being led around in chains.”  except it’s not just bankers, its politicians, career government officials, heads of corporations, etc. 

The world makes the choice between justice and order, and they choose justice

[sentientquillbeast]

MEET THE MUSE!

Rules: Don’t reblog, repost. Tagging: Whoever sees this and wants to do it Tagged by: No one lmao

( reply as muse talking )

► NAME ➭ Storm ► ARE YOU SINGLE? ➭    Yes and very much likin’ it that way ► ARE YOU HAPPY? ➭   Yes, absolutely! ► ARE YOU ANGRY?  ➭   Yes, absolutely! ► ARE YOUR PARENTS STILL MARRIED? ➭ I. Well. I dunno, man, they never got divorced but I think the whole ‘till death do us part’ thing nullifies marriage maybe? And they sure did double nullify that one if that’s how it works.

⚡️ NINE FACTS! ► ‘BIRTH’ PLACE ➭   Oak Ridge town ► HAIR COLOR ➭ Blue? Gray??? Which part of fur would this apply to--Just the head I guess? Blue. ► EYE COLOR ➭   Also blue but not the same blue. It’s like a darker-ish blue. I dunno colors man it’s all just blue. ► BIRTHDAY ➭    17th of June and no longer relevant! ► MOOD ➭    Very mixed, five outta ten ► GENDER ➭  Boy? I guess??? ► SUMMER OR WINTER ➭   Winter for sure. Easier t’wake up in ► MORNING OR AFTERNOON ➭  Afternoon. If I’m awake in the mornin’ I’m very tired on account of not sleepin’

⚡️ EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE! ► ARE YOU IN LOVE?➭  Yes in the platonic sense. But I’m thinkin’ y’don’t mean it that way, given the title of this section. I ain’t got that man, I’m aro. I don’t got one of those kinda lives. ► DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT? ➭ Absolutely not unless it has to do with food ► WHO ENDED YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP? ➭ No one ‘cause I never had one of those ► HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART? ➭   I dunno ► ARE YOU AFRAID OF COMMITMENTS? ➭   Not the kind yer thinkin’ of ‘cause I ain’t interested in those ► HAVE YOU HUGGED SOMEONE WITHIN THE LAST WEEK?➭ No on account that the one person I’d hug around here would turn me into a zombot ► HAVE YOU EVER HAD A SECRET ADMIRER? ➭   I hope the hell not ► HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN YOUR OWN HEART? ➭  Well I don’t got anyone else’s heart t’break, now do I?

⚡️SIX CHOICES! ► LOVE OR LUST ➭ Platonic love thank you. I’m also ace. This is the worst thing to be askin’ an aroace like me. ► LEMONADE OR ICED TEA ➭  Iced tea I guess if I absolutely had to choose ► A FEW BEST FRIENDS OR MANY REGULAR FRIENDS ➭   A few best friends ► WILD NIGHT OUT OR ROMANTIC NIGHT IN ➭  Again I don’t do that second one. And if by ‘wild night out’ y’mean drivin’ through the city both literally and figuratively in speeds that are absolutely NOT legal then...Yes.Absolutely. ► DAY OR NIGHT  ➭ Night, though honestly it depends on the weather!

⚡️ FIVE HAVE YOU EVERS! ► BEEN CAUGHT SNEAKING OUT ➭   Yup ► FALLEN DOWN/UP THE STAIRS ➭  Yup! ► WANTED SOMETHING/SOMEONE SO BADLY IT HURT? ➭   Yup!!! Damn, y’really comin’ for my throat with some of these

⚡️FIVE PREFERENCES! ► SMILE OR EYES ➭  Smile? ► SHORTER OR TALLER ➭ SHORTER!!! CHAOS, PLEASE, JUST GET PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT ARE SHORTER!! ► INTELLIGENCE OR ATTRACTION ➭   I don’t do that second one ► HOOK-UP OR RELATIONSHIP ➭ This quiz is a monument to how many times I can point out I don’t do either of those

⚡️ FAMILY! ► DO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY GET ALONG ➭  Do y’mean the biological one or the adoptive one because oh boy ► WOULD YOU SAY YOU HAVE A “MESSED UP LIFE” ➭ I would say my life has got shot, fallen down the stairs and straight onto a knife, before a big wardrobe rolls down the same stairs and then straight onto it, and also the wardrobe is full of iron nails and hammers, before a nonsensical action-movie-esque explosion happened for no reason just as the wardrobe hit it,causin’ a rift through time and space, ensuring my life would be messed up straight into tomorrow and six ways till Sunday on a multiversal scale. S’fine. This is fine.

► HAVE YOU EVER RAN AWAY FROM HOME ➭    Kind of I guess? S’complicated, do not question me ever. ► HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN KICKED OUT ➭  See that’s also a ‘kind of??’ and yer also still questionin’ me I specifically said not to do that.

⚡️ FRIENDS! ► DO YOU SECRETLY HATE ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS ➭   I. What the hell kinda people do ya usually run into to prompt this kinda question? If I hate someone then they ain’t a friend. ► DO YOU CONSIDER ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS GOOD FRIENDS ➭  For sure! ► WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND ➭  This fella named Zee. I mean, do refer to the ‘few best friends’ question, but I’d say Zee’s like...a BEST best friend t’me. ► WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU ➭  My brother! We’ve gone through a lotta the same crap together and he’s been around a long time. Would be kinda weird if he didn’t know everythin’ ‘bout me, honestly.

[allthefilmsiveseenforfree]

The Lighthouse

Do you like moody, indecipherable period pieces about two men farting and masturbating and putting sea curses on each other? Then boy have I got a film recommendation for you! The Lighthouse is Robert Eggers’ follow up to his other moody, indecipherable period piece, The VVitch, but this time instead of the devil tempting young Puritans, it’s the isolation of a tiny island off the coast of Nova Scotia that is tempting two lighthouse keepers, Ephraim (Robert Pattinson) and Thomas (Willem Dafoe) into madness as they live and work together for 4 weeks alone tending their lighthouse. I was expecting some horror, some slow descent into madness, some paranoia, and maybe a twist. So what did I actually get? Well...

A whole lotta letdown. I’m not sure why I hated this as much as I did, but I think it was just decidedly Not My Thing because there’s not a lot of actual narrative or characterization to hold onto. It made me feel stupid, like I didn’t “get” it, but I’m not sure there was actually much more to get - or maybe it swung too far the other direction, a la Mother! and everything was a metaphor for everything. Either way, I was left deeply unsatisfied. 

Some thoughts:

This foghorn, man. I think the foghorn alone could drive anyone on this rock mad.

I have less than no idea what they’re saying. Honestly, by the end, I think I actually picked up about 50% of the spoken dialogue, and the other 50% may as well have been Swedish. Director/writer Robert Eggers relied on period-accurate dialogue just as he did in his first film, The VVitch, which is great for the ~vibe~, but shit for allowing me to connect with the characters.

I did very much enjoy the score. It’s all haunting sounds based on the waves slapping against the rocks, the sound of the foghorn, the wind whistling against the house. Such an effective and subtle way to build the mood and atmosphere of the piece. 

Ephraim seems weirdly shocked to see Thomas sleep-humping his bed. Is that weird? I mean, Ephraim was just jerkin it in the equipment shed. 

Speaking of all the jerking, how in god’s name can you jerk off in the middle of a nor’easter while freezing cold Atlantic rain is dripping all over you? Is there nowhere else you can find to do this besides the drippiest place on this damn island?

I knew going in this movie was going to be weird, but I didn’t think it would be so...kinky? Tentacle kink? Mermaid sex? Puppy play? And here I thought Quentin Tarantino was obvious about his foot fetish...turns out, Robert Eggers has him beat.

Also, re: the mermaid, I’m just, I’m very confused about the mermaid. What purpose does the mermaid serve beyond a symbol for Ephraim to get off to? Is she a siren luring him to his doom? Is she a metaphor for something else, the temptation of the light? Or is she just the closest thing to a woman Ephraim can conceive of, an outlet for his sexual frustrations?

For those sensitive to such things, there is an extended seagull murder that’s pretty disturbing.

The one scene I did find pretty funny and charming was Thomas getting SO OFFENDED at the idea that Ephraim didn’t like his cooking.

More than any other thing, I have to praise the cinematography. Every shot looks like an oil painting - the moody shadows, the blinding light, the black and white film, the almost square aspect ratio - this is a very carefully conceptualized visual piece, and it is truly gorgeous to watch.

Is this gaslighting or is this Fight Club? I constantly felt like I just didn’t “get” what was going on, either because I couldn’t understand the dialogue, or I couldn’t understand the motivation of the characters, or I couldn’t discern reality from hallucination. I’m with you for a certain level of ambiguity and an unreliable narrator. But I get fed up at a certain point - if everything is built on sand, I’ve got nothing to hold onto as a viewer. 

Did I Cry? My tear ducts were as bored and confused as the rest of me, so...no.

A friend of mine described this movie as a “mood piece and hangout movie” and apparently I really hate both of those genres if there’s not enough thematic substance for me to care about what’s going on. I would say if you liked The VVItch, give this one a shot, but I LOVED The VVitch and I kinda hated this. If you like dark, broody, atmospheric pieces, give this one a try. Otherwise, I’m not sure how accessible this one is going to be for most folks.

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[dayna-scully]

ncis/tiva s6 lb

season 3  |  season 4   |  season 5  |  season 7   |  season 8  |  season 9  |  season 10  |  etc

6x01

je peux pas resister

heeey it’s the Australian again

love child is a really sweet show, but he’s a dick in it

oh I guess Palmer and lee broke up

they’re not your a-team though, gibbs

wow over 4 months

ziva, always getting hurt

math gibberish

oh so pine gap really exists?

stuck with Bad Dad

we miss you, ziver

even, uh, tony

💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

(especially tony)

oh I forgot about rivkin cool cool cool cool cool cool

dudnt

you are a geek, offbrand mcgee

I also always forget that ncis is a jag spin off

gibbs, retrieving his ducklings

I really need to come home, boss

you know I love you guys

miss you too dad

😖😖😖😖💔💔💔💔

oh lee

ziva!!!!! ziva!!!!!!!!!!!

he says Abby’s his favourite but let’s be honest

6x02

the origin of my otp tag for tiva

I wish michael weatherly wasn’t such a piece of shit irl

ziva staring at Tony’s empty desk

“all those who care about him” like you, ziva???

the favourite wants to talk to her boyfriend, dad

taller? hotter?/older

you could have called

she would have answered, dinozzo

totally normal platonic professional work behaviour to have multiple pictures of your work partner in a bikini on your wall in your bunk yep

what are those doing on your wall?

gibbs knows what they’re doing there

you get used to seeing someone everyday, talking to them, relying on them, and suddenly they’re not there

(terrible screen shot since they were moving too much but personal space jeez)

doesn’t make it any easier for mcgee

yes, sure, “mcgee”, you two are alone tony, you can say that you missed seeing her every day to her face

y’know, the face that you missed seeing every day

a dwinkaquink

you’re back in dc, which is what you wanted! Isn’t it?

that’s not what I asked

Michael Rivkin happened in Israel

you’re right, I don’t want to talk about it

lotta things take mcgee seconds

Michael who?

seems like old times

home

she loooves him

and still always has to be beside him

6x03

excuse me????????????????

you are such a control geek

hmm ziva feels really violated by Tony’s nosiness

tony…does not seem to get it

McGee found it with his butt

isn’t that just Jenny’s house redecorated

6x04

the same back alley they use every time, too

and other mouth related activities

who’s this tony?

gibbs’ son and ziva’s boyfriend

oh gibbs

6x05

tony is upset that she’s going back to Israel and also that he didn’t know

I am normal people

she got the bothersome part right

normal

me whenever tony and ziva do what tony and ziva always do

what is it you really want to know, tony?

thought you already mcdid that

or maybe his friends lied to him about a romantic attachment

?????? what tony

you would only care this much if you were jealous

nosy dinozzo

rivkin 😡

my ninja

?????????

god damn tony

he’s promoting me to head monkey

why are you showing me mould porn?

tony has a cruuuush

6x06

tony is going to make so many jokes

you certainly have your moments

he has his moments

lets see who the boss likes better/ziva

I told you she was his favourite

no personal space

wasn’t my type though/really? She was breathing

I have standards, ziva, otherwise I’d be dating you

suuuuuuure tony sure

6x07

ziva’s jealous of the recruit

your weird uncle jethro

a baby agent

ziver

6x08

oh come on seriously

same z

don’t say the word war game

well that did not go as planned

she’d kill all of them with her bare hands to get tony back

we never have to pay for a drink again

OH ELEVATOR

she’d kill to protect him

I’m tired of pretending/so am I

oh ziva

oh. That’s much worse.

tony knows it’s a part of the plan

McGee evidently doesn’t

circling sharks

6x09

tony knows about a very private tattoo 👀👀👀

they really like killing off women

6x10

that dude is 23?

this is less “you’re a lech” and more “please love me”

I always thought cougars like young guys

get dunked dinozzo

eat the rich

I like to have fun in more…adult ways

wanna go on a movie date, ziva?

6x11

oof mcgoo

6x12

her name is Hannah, she’s asked me out to lunch twice

that face says that ziva did accept

6x14

that’s actually pretty cruel

but like…McGee…likes tony

haven’t I taught you anything?

that amount of zoom is literally not possible

you cannot make pixels where there are none

why not just ghost him?

siblingsss

6x15

I miss s4 mature tony

ngl ziva shooting is pretty hot

there is a smurf war

la Bonita

they always have to be within three feet of each other

nice talking to ya Leon

too bad there aren’t little gibblets running around

6x16

😟are you going back to Mexico

we’ve just never heard you say that much at once

tfw you make your dad proud

6x17

don’t trust people who offer help in a case

oooh a hit man

6x18

it’s not likely he was shot by a bird

maybe you should be looking for something a little closer to home

yes, approximately 8 feet from your desk, z

but he’s fucking ancient

“pick the right woman” ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye

6x19

what are you up to mcsneaky

little sister can’t tell them what to do

poor trash panda

6x20

damn girl

fuckin cowboy move

you’re the real victim here, aren’t you wall

6x21

all she can think about is tony when he’s not around

6x22

ugh backdoor pilot

Tele-friend from tel Aviv?/you’re jealous

yes, he has a name

why does that bother me so much

cover for me?

go? gone.

ahh, personal, not professional

the duck man is on the right track!!

I’m thinking she’s worried about something

oh tony

how did he not know about what happened?

Special Investigation, top Secret

a real lead? I mean, really, a lead?

angry, scared tony

ziva lied to someone she loved, but this time he found out

6x23

I always forgot that Michael is the one they’re after in 22

you did not think I would identify him

don’t ask that question

like how well you know him?

gibbo is worried about his daughter

6x24

I’m up a tree

oh tony oh dear

she’s so hurt

he would never date a coworker but he’s definitely thinking about it

I think “bad” is an understatement for how that went

6x25

this season is soooo looong

tony done fucked up

don’t lie to your dad ziva

you wanted to protect her

that music is so incongruous

a cruel way to get the truth for ziva, but effective

why do people always put the blame on ziva

it’s never actually her fault

for you

you felt it was you job to protect me?

but I should have been

oh z

I suppose this is ziva being on Jeanne’s side of the situation

and of course when ziva realizes she’s loyal to gibbs, he leaves her behind

LIKE AN ASSHOLE

oof

one short

she asked you to choose so you chose tony

Oh yes giving her time ends up being SUCH a fantastic choice gibbs

like why this assumption that ziva would just…live a normal life in Israel?

[scaryscarecrows]

Roots and Leaves, Pt. 5

Jason ends up making a new, not-dorky e-mail to get a hold of Sheila. He’s got two, it’s not that, but one he knows Barbara (and therefore Bruce) monitors, and the other, well…look. Dick made it for him when he was a kid, and…Dick…Dick is Dick. God help him, he thought ‘littlewing@gmail’ was a good idea and by the time Jason actually found out about it, it was too late to do anything.

Oh, well. Everyone hates their first e-mail address. And at least he didn’t come up with that, he had it thrust upon him. It’s something.

He makes a nice, unembarrassing, un-Bat-stalked e-mail and sends a generic ‘hey how are you’. And then promptly pretends to himself that he doesn’t remember doing that and goes to trawl Craigslist for any sketchy-looking ads. You’d think these people would learn that there’s at least a sixty-forty shot of a cop or worse answering, but whatever.

So far, there’s not much-lotta people lookin’ for a dom-oh. Ohhh, that movie came out last weekend, didn’t it. That explains so much.

He clicks back out and channel-surfs for a bit instead, catches two seconds of a promo for something with a bloody clown and figures fuck it, he’s playing Mario Party even though it cheats worse than Penguin’s professional card players.

He’s getting absolutely wrecked by Goddamn Waluigi when his laptop announces that he’s got mail. He pauses-mid-Goddamn Waluigi gloating pose, how unfortunate-and pulls it over.

She has sent him a…it’s a…cat. She’s sent him a picture of a smiling cat. Is this a thing? Is this referencing something? Is she, perhaps, actually related to Dick?

He’s so confused.

Whatever. A quick Google search says that the cat is a thing. He responds with a piano-playing one and an inquiry about work before shutting off the Gamecube because fuck you, Waluigi.

Now what? He’s not good at this kinda thing, never was even…Before…but now? Haha forget it. He can muddle, a little, when people don’t know things but she knows something, clearly, because Batman tracked her down. She knows enough, and invariably there will be pity because nobody, including himself, knows what to say.

He wraps himself up in the blanket that lives on the couch and wishes somebody had written a manual for ‘how to live your best life after spending a year with a mad clown’. But to be fair, there can’t be that many people who lived to tell the tale.

Heh. There’s that one Gotham-based advice columnist, the one who’s there for the weirdoes with questions like ‘I have a hardcore crush on the Riddler, but I know I shouldn’t, please help me’. He could write to that…no, no, that wouldn’t end well. Some weird Joker cultist might come looking for him.

The computer dings again and he shoves a hand free from the blankets. Another cat, and a ‘thankfully slow day. This is his life now, apparently; communicating with his maybe-long-lost-mother through cat pictures. What a world.

He’s not gonna lie, though, the cats are cute and it’s…they’re a good buffer. They’re making this all a little less awkward.

As it turns out, he may come by his ‘God help the dumbasses’ honestly-Sheila has a biting sense of humor and he knows he shouldn’t laugh at the schmuck who got his dick wedged in a coconut, but…but…he’s sure that guy’s probably the same type to take a shortcut down a dark alley. Hell, for all he knows, he’s saved that exact guy from that exact situation.

Bruce would roll his eyes and rub his nose and say nothing. He was never very good at realizing that yeah, you gotta save people, but sometimes…sometimes they’re in that boat because they’re really fucking stupid.

Or at least, he never told Jason that.

It’s another hour, easy, of light back-and-forth before he makes himself send a ‘I gotta get some sleep, I got the night shift’, shuts the computer off, and burrows into his blanket. Bed’s too far away and he’s comfy here.

For once, he’s out cold in five minutes.

* * *

He lives to regret sleeping on the couch. When he wakes up, it’s late afternoon and he. Is. Stiff.

I regret my life choices.

Well. Most of them, anyway.

His computer informs him that Sheila sent him a ‘sweet dreams’ e-mail and, um. It’s. It’s been a while and he’s torn between being gobsmacked and feeling stupid for feeling all warm inside.

Catherine used to-well, when she was…healthy…-she used to read to him from an old, falling apart book of Greek myths. Looking back, she did some heavy on-the-fly editing, because it wasn’t until later that he found out that oh, Hercules killed his whole family, but she did it and after, she used to kiss his forehead and tell him the same thing. He tried to do it for her, later, but he was never really good at it and she never seemed to notice.

He did it anyway.

Stretching gets several nasty pops out of his spine and hips, but he can now move a little easier. He wants a smoothie.

He’s just finished making it when there’s a knock on his door and he frowns, tries to remember if he ordered anything recently. No…so…

It turns out to be Mz. Melinda May, armed with Snickerdoodles. Hell yes.

“Hey, Triple-M.”

“Hey, honey.” She shoves the plate at him. “I don’t trust you not to eat.”

“I do!” he protests, moving out of the way so she can come in. “I just made a smoothie! I made Jambalaya last night!”

That was a bad thing to say. She cocks an eyebrow at him and asks, voice deadly calm, “Did you put a splash of Tabasco in it?”

Shit. He knew he forgot something.

“No?”

“Boy, I told you once, I told you a hundred times…”

“I spaced! I got distracted by something outside!”

She sighs and shakes her head.

“I’m not staying, it’s my bridge night and those old bitches are going down in flames.” Some part of him is, and probably always will be, amused and terrified that she swears like that. “But you don’t take care of yourself.”

“Thanks for the cookies.”

“Hm.” She hobbles into the hall, muttering darkly to herself about, “No Tabasco…absolute disgrace…” and he shuts the door. Shower, then cookie.

…

No. Cookie first. So it doesn’t go stale or anything. Can’t be too careful, after all.